I swear, something in the wind can hear me when I make a promise.
I can feel it the minute I use the words “daily”, “weekly”, “monthly”.
Probably because they are icky, sticky, no good, very bad adverbs.
I realized earlier this afternoon that my email did not send out for daily_001 like it was supposed to. Some screw up on my end assuming my RSS feed would stay the same after my change of the domain of this blog (for those that haven’t seen, look ^^^^ !! My name in lights!)
A part of me noticed that the email never got sent out, and whispered this is your way out, why did you promise that? You have two books to write this year blah blah blah blah.
Me and my head can go back and forth all day. I’m sure you are quite familiar, ye olde Building and Loan reader, you.
It’s quite the human problem, knowing oneself. A dog doesn’t care if licking itself is pleasant or productive or “aligned with their vision board”; they just outright do it, no matter how much we beg and plead them not to.
It is the divine nature, the imago dei, sentience, of humankind that allows us to see ourselves, to think beyond what lets us eat and drink and that other stuff.
But I have tasted command, and I cannot give it up. (Connor Roy, N. Bonaparte)
I did 75 Hard last year *ducks*. It was, indeed, quite hard. But it taught me a lot about this particular arrangement of meat and fat and bones I was given upon my arrival.
- I am capable of much more than I think I am.
- I don’t want to do the work to prove it, at least initially
- The best rewards come on the other side of doing it, because failing means I have to tell my friend that did the thing that I flunked out
In the case of the above, feel free to supplant thinking of me (the author) with thinking of me (the reader). Internalize it, in other words. See what happens.
I can write a couple words a day if I can do that, can’t I? And _075 is sooooo stinking close to _100, I’m sure it’s doable.
I promise not all of these posts will be about how little I believe in my ability to write them.
Tomorrow, I’m going to talk about running.
*ducks*